I almost didn’t go. Work had drained me, and takeout in bed seemed easier. But something nudged me: dress up, go out, take yourself somewhere nice. So I did. The restaurant glowed like a greenhouse on the corner. “Reservation for one,” I told the host, and he led me to a perfect window table. I ordered wine, salad, and the halibut I’d read would “change your perspective on fish.”
I was settling in when the server returned: would I mind moving so a large family could combine tables? The old reflex—apologize, make space—rose in my throat. Instead, I smiled and said, “I’d like to stay here.” Shame tugged at me until a woman approached. “I’m the mother of the family,” she said. “I wanted to thank you for not moving. I want my kids to see that a party of one is still a party.” Her words softened everything.
The halibut arrived, perfect. Later, one of her daughters handed me a crayon drawing of the window and a smiling stick figure—me. My heart swelled. The staff, maybe chastened, sent over a lemon tart “for perspective.” When I left, the host blushed at my thanks. “My mom eats out alone a lot,” he said quietly.
At home, I pinned the drawing to my mirror. It reminded me that being alone isn’t an apology or a placeholder. That night, I slept like someone who had finally set something down. Sometimes holding your seat is the bravest yes.